since no one even knows i have this, i feel comfortable saying this. this could be the worst week of my year starting right now. i have so much to do that i can’t even describe my workload. while i understand it would be arrogant to believe that the world just couldn’t exist without my participation in it, i foresee some major disasters if i don’t follow through on all of my work.
this, however, is not the biggest problem. the reason i hurt so much about this is that i have no best friend to help shoulder my burden and listen to my frustration. perhaps the greatest weight in my life is that i don’t have that one deep friendship connection in which i feel comfortable saying and doing anything, and know i will always receive support (other than that with my boyfriend, of course).
i have trouble making that connection for a multitude of irrelevant reasons. the problem is that i keep making amazing peripheral friendships, but there’s never that one girl who i can totally trust and love, and who totally trusts and loves me back. it would be great to have someone anticipate my struggle and send me a word of encouragement. that kind of friendship doesn’t happen overnight, though.
